pokemon diamond - [2363-4084-1948], ID00515, sable

animal crossing - 3866-5138-6703, sable who lives in temply



enjoy <3

WELCOME IRL FRIENDS; READ ON

a lot happened this weekend.
but, the most important of it was that i realised how much i love my friends. each breathe i now take i am so grateful for.
i have never wanted anything more than to hope that i make a difference to one person. because as long as i'm doing that then my existance here is not wasted. thankyou.
jessie; for letting me talk (type) your ears (eyes) off. so so so grateful
maggie; you actually listen to me, and mean it.
ryley; you make me smile. i've never had someone be so kind to me that randomly. without expecting anything in return.
patty; wow. um. yeah. you turned lesbian for me. enough said ? :P i have never felt so loved by any individual before.
sheridyn; for giving me the confidence to model again. thankyou
kitten; making me smile always. and always sharing.
rachel; rollerskating with me. i feel like less of a dickhead around you. thankyou so so so much.
liz!; a gorgeous face and cuddles at a place i'd much not rather be.

thankyou so much.
i had to let you know. i never take you for granted. i wouldn't
i had an epiphany.



ry; you've inspired me.
i'm learning to sing this. i haven't sung since january. my range is back, so you all better watch the fuck out.
i've moved past her. patty, you helped me validate that. let a new love take your old heart - fuck yes.

stupid misunderstandings between old friends have past. i've never felt so confident in myself ever.


i feel awash with hope. and love.
and liver disease ;D



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nothing they say can make me change my feelings now. i am resolute.
thankyou ♥

honeylungs!honeylungs!honeylungs!honeylungs!honeylungs!

I LOVE IT! :D

oi. people in australia who like to game - EB games will give you 15% off certain things if you join up to their webmail.
it seems pretty mad.
click here for the free 15% off voucher, and click here,/a> for information about their VIP 'edge' program thingy

some images from the shoot on saturday ( +2 )

(i took these from updated on my myspace, so they aren't the best quality, sorry)

ugh. i had a huge breakout today. ugh. ugh. ugh.
first of all, i did this work for my tafe oral, and yeah, my teacher pretty much blasted the shit out of me in front of the class. but i deserved it. it put me in my place, and made me realise im just a lazy little shit ^_^ hohum. started some lino-cutting today, to do some prints with next week. i tell you what, that shit is more complicated than i expected.
oh, and my teacher changed my photography class from wednesday to friday, which means that what i had organised with kat (to model for her school stuff on that day) wasn't going to work out - and she got seriously shitty with me.
but, whatever. shit things happen in my life but i'm not going to dwell on them.
moving on.


my weekend... friday night, nothing. connie went to stay with her friend, so i had the computer to myself that night. just doing some odd ends that needed tidying up.
uh, saturday modeled for sheridyn (here), so hopefully she gets the images soon so i can show you all. i got to mannequin in the window of Route66, and inside the store, and the chick working in there asked sheridyn to send her a couple for the website (maybe!) EXCITING!

and and and sunday was mother's day. i wrote a letter to mom just explaining everything to her in the way that i'm trying to grow as a person etc, and all that fun stuff. and then, at 10.30 i left to get into the city on time to meet up with rachel, jump on a train, and go skating with the Victorian Roller Derby League's Fresh-Meat class. which was pretty much just 7 of us new kids learning shit while the other awesome girls did training and exercises. i only fell on my butt a couple of times, so i reckon that was ok! :D we did pretty epic warmups though - full on pushups and situps. this actually has a chance of making me fit! for those that don't know about roller derby

i got sized up for actual skates, seeing as i would be looking to buy some (i borrowed all my gear seeing as i can't afford any at the moment), and i'm a men's 6 (so yeah, hint, these are the skates that i was recommended to get. which, to be honest, they are a bit expensive ($US123.50, $AUD131.26) - but they have aluminium trucks -and- are better for narrow feet (which i have, duh). i think if i just go down to my local rink to hirew skates while i get my skating experience up for a bit, sell some shit on ebay (to make some $$) and get a job, i should be able to buy skates, which means that i can at least borrow pads/helmet until i can afford them as well - so then i can train all the time!
ooooh im so excited about this :D

oh im so overwhelmed with the fact that this might just work out :D

she's open waiting for more

so. after a huge fight. i like to get wasted, stoned. and listen to this song.
and sleaze on the closest moderately attractice being.











wowow. i'll be their slave till the day i die. *flails arms*

i'm sniffly, sneezing, and awfully coughing.
no more smoking. its really not doing me any favours.

um, saturday i'm doing some photos with sheridyn, for her school work (and, somehow, getting a roll done for photography).
and, sunday, LOLZ MOTHER'S DAY!, i'm going to a fresh-meat training session at dandenong with rachel. IM EXCITED! but so so nervous at the same time. i haven't skated for about 4 years, so this should be interesting....



oooooooooh i hope they email me back soon !

i met a random at my bus shelter at my bus-interchange today. she rolled me a cigarette and made me smile something chronic.
it was strange.

it made me feel, appreciated.
like, this one person i had only met for about 15 minutes really liked spending time with me, and actually wanted to talk to me.

i felt like i could trust this girl. this millie. who i had only met 5 minutes beforehand. i felt like i could trust her more than the people i have known for over 3 years.

i feel like things with time lose it.
like, after too long people will get sick of me. or just think i am the same-old unreliable jerk.

hm.

lisa kereszi here

wow. this image is figurative of how i would love my room to be. or, have you ever seen that image of nick cave working away at his desk?
or that.


gosh. i'm suddenly inspired.
i'll start on my oral first thing tomorrow.

oh oh oh i want to take photos now. im feeling at peace. suddenly.
maybe i'm suddenly on my euphoric high ?




OH! and i'm seriously considering roller-derby as my new sport.
i'm going to be contacting the VRDL to see if i can start training or if i'm suitable ^_^

me and rachel might be going here -->


teehee

wow. um. craziest 24 hours ever? defiantely

didn't go to tafe because i woke up with a killer sore throat - thought shit, i've got what dad has, great..., so just took some panadol, a codral, and two doses of this immune system stuff, an insomnia tablet i found in the medicine cupboard, and went back to bed. i stopped by the bathroom to gargle with salt-water (for my throat)
four hours later, i wake up feeling like a zombie and with a killer set of jelly legs. go downstairs for some lunch (yes, some actual food), and re-dose on panadol. go back upstairs for a little snooze.
wake up at about three (an hour after i've eaten), and go downstairs to gargle. collapse on the way to the bathroom. wake up later not be able to move my legs, wedged between the toilet and the wall, with a huge lump on my head. mom helps me as i shakily get back upstairs, collapse into bed and cry for about 4 hours, while mom and dad are running around me shouting things like 'you don't eat enough' and 'let me get you [insert here]'.
mom brings up a vitamin smoothie later and i get shitty at her for no reason (mainly just because im feeling like a pissweak little nothing for collapsing everywhere, but you've all heard that before). so, i drink said smoothie about 30mins later. even though i told both dad AND mom that it's going to make me violently ill.

2 hours, a long hot shower, awkward conversation with mom, and a bed-sheet change later i'm apologizing like fuck for reasons i know are out of my control but i can't help but feel crappy about anyway.


i'm just hoping today is ok.
well, better.


i miss people. a lot. i need to do this oral thing for tafe but i have no bandwidth, so i'm kinda just trying to do two things at once - once using internet, one not. its a little very frustrating.
*mashes keyboard*

i feel so. hm. i feel like, i'm complaining about things that in the long run really don't mean anything, while my friends are actually going through shit. i want to help, but i feel relatively useless in that aspect. i avoid seeing people at most costs nowadays, i'm getting too anxious about certain things... i dunno. i've taken a few steps backward in that regard.

the weather has suddenly gotten freeeeeeezing around melbourne. i must not only be the only one who has notices this. it's funny, because suddenly all those clothes i've been meaning to alter, i really just want to wear shitty or not shitty.
there's a few skirts i want to make shorter, and a patch i'd like to stick onto a jumper. i really need to stop procrastinating and motivate myself. i spend all my time waiting for other people to motivate me - it's terribly detrimental, because lets face it how much time do i really spend with people anyway ?

hm.




im just waiting for a picture to load from our easter this weekend to put up here.
we found what looks like a speed lab in my grandad's basement. even though we really just know its his home-made alcohol :P
i dunno. my thoughts on religion have not changed since i was 16, and i stand firm by them, even though my gran was getting all shitty at me for it. ugh.


i have a plan for next year - psc part time, then working during the day (doing night classes) = $$ = move out of home. it seems like it could work. hopefully.
i discussed it with a girl who is doing psc night part-time and it's working for her. i think that way if im making some money, i'd be a lot happier. well, combined with the possibility of not living at home, that would be even better. hm...

i messed up moms internet connection on her laptop trying to connect my DS, so that i could wifi with some people.
and, she has exams coming up and stuff, and I DONT KNOW HOW TO FIX IT! :x

(she's kinda trying to fix it at the moment, i just pray that it fixes. please please please!)





(mk. she's going to fix it now.
eeeeeek)
EDIT she fixed it, but im still no further at making this freaking wifi thing work *shakesfist*



i only went to tafe yesterday to pick up a camera. i really couldn't be bothered going in for anything else.
then, last night i ws supposed to go out and drink up with patty and ryley and some others. but, of course, we were 'going to church' (which is pretty much translated to greek easter's big excuse to do nothing). so i didn't. but, mucking around in the street led to me, connie, alex and rhianna just going down to shoppingtown from 6-9 and pissfarting around there.
i bought a dress. i had $105 in my bank account (whatthe?!). its teal green, thermal and pretty awesome.
i'll get a photo and post one up asap.

oh. also, i have one photo from the set i did with comakisses paige (althought, really it was just having some fun in front of a camera :P) ( here ) - there's more of her awesome work here!. and seeing as its all about shameless plugs, go have a look at my deviantart page too!

they opened both a jb-hifi and! EB games at doncaster. so so so now i have double the places to trade/buy DS games. yayayayayay! im still looking to get phantom hourglass (zelda), and possibly mariokart. i'm going to finish up with super mario bros. and pokemon rescue team and trade those in to get some discounts ^_^
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OH! i made the wifi work *dances*
so, friendcodes are;
animal crossing - 3866-5138-6703 (character is called sable, and town called temply)
pokemon (diamond) - (apparently you don't need a friend code? whats up with that? - explain?) - my is ID00515, and my name sable for that too :)




OOOOOOOOOOOH EXCITING!

for some strange reason, about 50billion of my livejournal friends are having their birthdays today! so, a very happy birthday to neploko, shrinkle and nonhumanreason!



took some photos with comakisses paige yesterday, so, once i've edited the ones on my end (and once she's done with the ones on hers), i'll put them up here for you lot to see.



these days are getting better and better.
i feel truely loved. thankyou so much to my loves; paige, jessie, ryley, maggie, patty, liz, rachel, geo, shezi.

AND MY LOVELY SISTER CONNNIE (btw, she totally made me write that :P)

gosh. i just realised its been blocking all people from commenting on my posts.
thankyou so much aria for letting me know!


is this better? (ill get around to fixing them all soon)