so. after a huge fight. i like to get wasted, stoned. and listen to this song.
and sleaze on the closest moderately attractice being.











wowow. i'll be their slave till the day i die. *flails arms*

yeah.
today really motivated me. seeing molly made me feel a lot better. just someone so, happy. well, happier. and more teen-like.
it put a lot of things in perspective. it simplified things for me, allowed me to realise that things don't need to be complicated to work. sure, complications are involved but aren't a necessity.

i hate being jealous.
i've been feeling it a lot at the moment, especially regarding a few people. i hate i though.
and i know that the longer i keep going at things the way i am the longer things are going to just seem stupid. and frustrating. and jealous!


i -need- clarity. i need to know i'm not going crazy. that there is something i can call this.
erk.
i want to say it simply. i am the kind of person that if things are wrong i would much rather know that live in oblivious denial/obliviousness.

i just wish more people were with me on this.



apart from that nothing is happening. a rather busy and turbulent 27th.
seeing molly is definately the highlight. - she makes me smile so much. (my friends make me smile just so much in general.)
i miss them.
i miss you.


come back. its like, a little piece of me is stuck with you. and i want it back. i couldn't care if i never saw you again i could. i lie. i need it back. that piece.
i need it back.
i need you back.




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meltdown.

went to chadstone today with some extended family on my dads side (all kids), and saw the hannah montana movie in 3D (ft. the jonas bros.)
it was a really funny movie actually. i reckon i was the oldest non-parent in the cinema.


worst $20 spent ever.
sorry guys - i could have bought a 12mm silicon with that, and a day trip to visit someone.


anyway. the real point of this post is that, my computer is a little bit of a douche. and the photos on my phone are stuck on there. GRUMBLE.
oh well. i'll take my lovely angst elsewhere.


LOVE!

so, just an update on that computer-saga;
turns out dad did fix it. which really pisses me off. the only reason he even did it was so that he can have power over when we use it, so that we're in 'debt' to him somehow and he can guilt trip us and make us feel bad about it.

stupid asshole of a man, honestly.









and now i'm trying to make photoshop work on this goddamn machine and it doesn't even want to freaknig work. x.X!!!
and, transfering and re-naming all the songs back onto iTunes. *joy!*

EDIT oh, i've forgotten how to get them off, does anyone feel like giving me a hand? - my photoshop is royally fucked. ugh

well, we were at the beach. then mom got angry because she couldn't get work done.
and i'm BORED AS wishing somehow there was a way to remotely use programs on the web without actually having to upload them onto your computer.
then i'd be able to edit some photo's that i took with kitten about 2 months ago :s
i've been a bit lot slack.

oh well. i'm going to start trying to fix the computer soon.
mom was hinting that dad might have tried to fix it. if he has i will smash his face.
since when is what we screw up and break his responsibility?
he has his own computer and two laptops at his disposal, why the fuck would he want to even touch a computer he said he hated because we screwed up so much?
wow, my angriness just rose 15million-fold.

other than that, things are ok.
hope everyones easter was bearable.
im going to get the camera out to update another post on _thechelseas - i asked there for some help about how to go about getting this chelsea thing done, and they were much help.




OH OH im sorry aria - we left before i got a chance to take a photo for you. D:




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today was the last day of tafe for the easter holidays. yaaaaaaayyyyyy! lots of workbook-working and art stuff, and catching up with lots and lots and lots of people is going to be happening soon.
of course i'm still a lot pissed off i can't go to the drink-up with patty, but i guess sometimes sacrifices have to be made if your a warhorse in battle. oh well...

i made my first canvas today. there was lots of string everywhere from the cotton and jared (a boy *GASP!*) dropped some on angie's shoulder and it pretty much looked like this (excuse the crappiness of the photo) -


its pretty cute, no? made me n'aww quite a lot.
(just so its known these two people are not in a relationship. just the fact that this appeared really seemed to somehow amuse me.)

got this little magazine called vice yesterday when i spent the afternoon with paige and ryley - its the best magazine for young people i've read. its pretty much how to survive as a uni student with minimal cash and maximum awesomeness. it made me rofl a lot :]

yes, as i mentioned i saw kit and ry yesterday during the afternoon. hadn't seen either of them in a while (yeah, ry in about 5+ months :s) so it was FANTASTIC to catch up. we've promised to make something happen this holidays, ie spending a shitload of time with each other.
and i'm going to make that happen with most people i haven't seen in a while. i've made a list and am collecting some money so coffee's/drinks will definitely be happening soon.

i've been strangely tired lately. but hopefully holidays will allow me to catch up on some much needed sleep. fingers crossed!


shameless plug - modcloth.com; awesome clothes, and gala's worked out some sort of lovely arrangement with them at the moment. lovely!



miss talking you a lot of you.
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