HAHAHA. i'm so unrealiable it isn't even funny anymore.

i think i need some more lj friends. i just feel like everyone's so inactive! haha.


(this is nubby and gala by bianca alexis, btw)
this image, reminds me of me and paige. once i can afford to not live at home, we'll be out in the big wide world together.
i'll feel like going for a stroll, so we'll dress up and run out into the street to see what the stars look like tonight.
here i am assuming she'll want to live with me. lolololol.

im so anxiously awaiting the future. but i always dream too much and thats my downfall.
wow. things, LOOK UP :)

(btw. my room is looking so naked atm. its ridiculously dusty in there. i need a vaccuum pronto!

haha. i feel kinda VERY stupid. im getting a lot panicky over little things (or nothing) and its embarrasing.
but you know, its just about the same old usual stuff. lame, right?

(i didn't go to tafe today. oh well...)

i kinda half had a panic attack about next year and studying. stupid, right?
and uh, oh well.
maybe dying my hair sooon. blonde is overrated.

i feel so. hm. i feel like, i'm complaining about things that in the long run really don't mean anything, while my friends are actually going through shit. i want to help, but i feel relatively useless in that aspect. i avoid seeing people at most costs nowadays, i'm getting too anxious about certain things... i dunno. i've taken a few steps backward in that regard.

the weather has suddenly gotten freeeeeeezing around melbourne. i must not only be the only one who has notices this. it's funny, because suddenly all those clothes i've been meaning to alter, i really just want to wear shitty or not shitty.
there's a few skirts i want to make shorter, and a patch i'd like to stick onto a jumper. i really need to stop procrastinating and motivate myself. i spend all my time waiting for other people to motivate me - it's terribly detrimental, because lets face it how much time do i really spend with people anyway ?

hm.




im just waiting for a picture to load from our easter this weekend to put up here.
we found what looks like a speed lab in my grandad's basement. even though we really just know its his home-made alcohol :P
i dunno. my thoughts on religion have not changed since i was 16, and i stand firm by them, even though my gran was getting all shitty at me for it. ugh.


i have a plan for next year - psc part time, then working during the day (doing night classes) = $$ = move out of home. it seems like it could work. hopefully.
i discussed it with a girl who is doing psc night part-time and it's working for her. i think that way if im making some money, i'd be a lot happier. well, combined with the possibility of not living at home, that would be even better. hm...